A Sky Full of Stars
meow,meow
My name's poopy (^^)
Thishh ones for you;
SITE UPDATE1=SHE HATE'S ME
SITE UPDATE2 14/8/24=I MISS_U
SITE UPDATE3 = i dont know but this sinking feeling that I get when i come back home from uni its really weird ,i am just waiting for something to happen,iam just buying random stuff for you,hoping to meet you someday or send it too you in someway i know this feel's really absurd but thats just me.I really want too talk to you but the things i did and u did is holding me back on top of that it feels u just went apart like its not even a thing and i know thats notthe case but idk what else to think i really want us to talk enaku therla,never ever been hurt for soo longg,and idk if thats case with you hell i have no clue why am i even jotting down my thoughts in here,hope that you will read it someday nd I really dont want my feelings to end up in oblivion.
SITE UPDATE4 = 30/9/2024 you know i went to patrick's house today and jollya erunchuu and i ended up taking your physics book from him and it was weird ,coming back home in the bus with your book in my hand ,your handwriting is enough to make me tear up I mean yeahh..I kinda like this you know i feel like you would read this someday and i guess thats what i need,sounds stupid I know ,sounds weird I know,sounds creepy I know but i dont care i really feel like iam talking to you..and I really MISS YOU.I just have this gut feeling that like something will happen that would bring us close again(iam not insane and iam not delusional*)
SITE UPDATE5(5/10/24)=i found my thing likee..its game devlopment and anything related to it i would be really happy doing it for forever or maybe for sometime or maybe for this phase of my life(funny how i actually started out trying to build a game from ground up for you but i never started it..maybe i will do it someday).."My Stupid Heart" song is really relatable i really like it hehehe...hell why am i writing all this!?,i miss you.."but the truth is I cant open-up"..entha verse from a song i like it reall hits hard if only i said things directly to you.. not just you but everyone.all the bad things i said to you iam just an insecure piece of shit its me iam the psycho..i na una evlo
Site_update5 == epo than sudhar ta pesunen nd ig ur havning the time of ur life in uni ig lol(ofcourse not feeling jealous cus i feel left out(yeah i do u piece of shit)) now i feel soooo stupid but i cant help it from updating this site or doing some random na litrally thungiten i was not able to sleep ok va na patuku enthricu iam writing this at 1:00 am ..this site idk wether will u even look at this stuff at all its been 7 months since march 16-2024 remmember july 25th..? nahh u dont (i reall dont care if u dont tho but i do) its just now i realised that there is part of me that likes hurting people in an vengeful way thats bad ik na apo apo insecure aa feel panuven but duh not the way i talked to u but the way i did with my roomates now and in last year like everyone who occupies a certain metal space in mind its like iam just punishing them.like epo yesterday i had a fight with my roommate and now na regret panala yenda intha room eduthom nu cuz i feel like the problem is me or other way to word it would be iam the problem like in my entire life i always felt inferior to the people around in me in some way or other and i always imagine punching shit out of the guys that trigger a sence of inferior feeling in me but it all could've been avoide if i only i was self-ware i let the external factors affect the way i act and the way i think like too many things i do daily basis is litrally me and my fucking fucked up insecrity {ik its un acceptable for getting away with the ay we treated peopl with some pyschological terms} .(i dont regret anything like the fact that am typing this with zero hope in me says that but hey u said this site was the best gift ..so u gotta visit this sometime right..?..hell why am even thinking like that like you visit the site and then what...?..right away u r gonna be like awww cibi and call me and then what lol idk well i do fucking LOVE you tho and thats the fucking reason iam writing this pile load of shit at 1:41 am hell nah u cant do that u cant call me or can u?(dellululu)) my life is not that bad right for me to yap on this site that nobody cares but yeah its a lil bad i read something that said 'anxious poeple tend to try really hard to win over or attain someone or something just to feed in their inseurity and that someone or somthing should be knowing or unkowing their ther insecurity trigger{alright iam going crazy at this point lol}' gotta move this journal to diff site and drop a hyperlink ..lol ena sola vantha yeah it was me who had anger issues and it was me who made the choice hang around with people who are gonna piss me off and instead being in control i just fucking lash out on em like for fucks sake i always say this doesn't matter and that doesn't matter nd i'll be like wtf matter then ..and then i realize its you ..yes you are the only thhing that matters{fuck u that a joke or was it ..?(vsauce music)u dont know vsauce right dumbass}..nit joking i thought that was the case and i still do ig the only thing that matters the most is the people and stuff we love and thats all nothing else..u pice of shit its like the history repets meme i remember writing the the timestamps while i was writing ur slam book right..?...its the same fucking thing now but we r in a differnt and place and u probably forgot this shit of a site and me 2...anyways even now why do i feel weirdly tiggere for just a small talk with my its the subtl expressions and tone of peoples voice thats making me go crazy.gues i need too peal i mean heal*...god knows how i should do that..
SITE_UPDATE6=Where did you go now..?
Well...u sent songs me buttttttttt ,enaku oru dream vanthuchu ..it was really long one like ne pattu paditu eruntha nd then na karur la erunthen nd in some random place u where saying something nd then i kinda woke up lol...at this point i stopped asking myself why iam writing in this site lol cuz i love it its talking to ya but in really lowkey way like iam in a place where idont like manyy people igg and talking to you like sending an letter to you and waiting for an response lol...andd yeahh i really like game engineering nd stuff its really cool doing that stuff a lot lately ............butttttttt iiiiiiiiiii missss uuuuuuuuuu i mean not sad but its like u know iam sad lol..really wut would be ur reaction when u read all these like close it n pretend its not there !!dare u do it!!.....and i really miss you like seriously really miss uuuuuuuuuuuuuu
Life is funny isn't it,i mean yosichu paru the amount of times we think that we've got it all figured out,we plan something big,we get excited and suddenly something happens laa,..Maybe Thats just life...in a sense life in itself is like a person right sometimes?..Like Na una neriya thetti eruken lsu mari pani eruken nu bt that doesn't mean that I hate you or like I dont trust you or whatever you may think nooo its not like that pooja,You know that right!?..You are not just special to the people you are close with,but too everyone you meet,you leave a ever lasting feeling in them,a feeling of love ,feeling of closure,Feeling of being heard,feeling of companionship at times you give people a sense of idk maybe a feeling of Home..?(for me atleast hehe{someone put the sarcastic emoji here!!(hehe)})..Huh you dont know that right dumbass!?, you will never know stupid ,you will never know how Awesome you areeee ne veraa levell theriyumaaa....Remember,whatever Happens even if we tear each others apart just be happy ,I Mean Really Happy,Dancing On Air Happyy <3 ..
Trying to find my way back home to youuuuuu
SITE UPDATE1=SHE HATE'S ME
SITE UPDATE2 14/8/24=I MISS_U
SITE UPDATE3 = i dont know but this sinking feeling that I get when i come back home from uni its really weird ,i am just waiting for something to happen,iam just buying random stuff for you,hoping to meet you someday or send it too you in someway i know this feel's really absurd but thats just me.I really want too talk to you but the things i did and u did is holding me back on top of that it feels u just went apart like its not even a thing and i know thats notthe case but idk what else to think i really want us to talk enaku therla,never ever been hurt for soo longg,and idk if thats case with you hell i have no clue why am i even jotting down my thoughts in here,hope that you will read it someday nd I really dont want my feelings to end up in oblivion.
SITE UPDATE4 = 30/9/2024 you know i went to patrick's house today and jollya erunchuu and i ended up taking your physics book from him and it was weird ,coming back home in the bus with your book in my hand ,your handwriting is enough to make me tear up I mean yeahh..I kinda like this you know i feel like you would read this someday and i guess thats what i need,sounds stupid I know ,sounds weird I know,sounds creepy I know but i dont care i really feel like iam talking to you..and I really MISS YOU.I just have this gut feeling that like something will happen that would bring us close again(iam not insane and iam not delusional*)
SITE UPDATE5(5/10/24)=i found my thing likee..its game devlopment and anything related to it i would be really happy doing it for forever or maybe for sometime or maybe for this phase of my life(funny how i actually started out trying to build a game from ground up for you but i never started it..maybe i will do it someday).."My Stupid Heart" song is really relatable i really like it hehehe...hell why am i writing all this!?,i miss you.."but the truth is I cant open-up"..entha verse from a song i like it reall hits hard if only i said things directly to you.. not just you but everyone.all the bad things i said to you iam just an insecure piece of shit its me iam the psycho..i na una evlo
Site_update5 == epo than sudhar ta pesunen nd ig ur havning the time of ur life in uni ig lol(ofcourse not feeling jealous cus i feel left out(yeah i do u piece of shit)) now i feel soooo stupid but i cant help it from updating this site or doing some random na litrally thungiten i was not able to sleep ok va na patuku enthricu iam writing this at 1:00 am ..this site idk wether will u even look at this stuff at all its been 7 months since march 16-2024 remmember july 25th..? nahh u dont (i reall dont care if u dont tho but i do) its just now i realised that there is part of me that likes hurting people in an vengeful way thats bad ik na apo apo insecure aa feel panuven but duh not the way i talked to u but the way i did with my roomates now and in last year like everyone who occupies a certain metal space in mind its like iam just punishing them.like epo yesterday i had a fight with my roommate and now na regret panala yenda intha room eduthom nu cuz i feel like the problem is me or other way to word it would be iam the problem like in my entire life i always felt inferior to the people around in me in some way or other and i always imagine punching shit out of the guys that trigger a sence of inferior feeling in me but it all could've been avoide if i only i was self-ware i let the external factors affect the way i act and the way i think like too many things i do daily basis is litrally me and my fucking fucked up insecrity {ik its un acceptable for getting away with the ay we treated peopl with some pyschological terms} .(i dont regret anything like the fact that am typing this with zero hope in me says that but hey u said this site was the best gift ..so u gotta visit this sometime right..?..hell why am even thinking like that like you visit the site and then what...?..right away u r gonna be like awww cibi and call me and then what lol idk well i do fucking LOVE you tho and thats the fucking reason iam writing this pile load of shit at 1:41 am hell nah u cant do that u cant call me or can u?(dellululu)) my life is not that bad right for me to yap on this site that nobody cares but yeah its a lil bad i read something that said 'anxious poeple tend to try really hard to win over or attain someone or something just to feed in their inseurity and that someone or somthing should be knowing or unkowing their ther insecurity trigger{alright iam going crazy at this point lol}' gotta move this journal to diff site and drop a hyperlink ..lol ena sola vantha yeah it was me who had anger issues and it was me who made the choice hang around with people who are gonna piss me off and instead being in control i just fucking lash out on em like for fucks sake i always say this doesn't matter and that doesn't matter nd i'll be like wtf matter then ..and then i realize its you ..yes you are the only thhing that matters{fuck u that a joke or was it ..?(vsauce music)u dont know vsauce right dumbass}..nit joking i thought that was the case and i still do ig the only thing that matters the most is the people and stuff we love and thats all nothing else..u pice of shit its like the history repets meme i remember writing the the timestamps while i was writing ur slam book right..?...its the same fucking thing now but we r in a differnt and place and u probably forgot this shit of a site and me 2...anyways even now why do i feel weirdly tiggere for just a small talk with my its the subtl expressions and tone of peoples voice thats making me go crazy.gues i need too peal i mean heal*...god knows how i should do that..
SITE_UPDATE6=Where did you go now..?
Well...u sent songs me buttttttttt ,enaku oru dream vanthuchu ..it was really long one like ne pattu paditu eruntha nd then na karur la erunthen nd in some random place u where saying something nd then i kinda woke up lol...at this point i stopped asking myself why iam writing in this site lol cuz i love it its talking to ya but in really lowkey way like iam in a place where idont like manyy people igg and talking to you like sending an letter to you and waiting for an response lol...andd yeahh i really like game engineering nd stuff its really cool doing that stuff a lot lately ............butttttttt iiiiiiiiiii missss uuuuuuuuuu i mean not sad but its like u know iam sad lol..really wut would be ur reaction when u read all these like close it n pretend its not there !!dare u do it!!.....and i really miss you like seriously really miss uuuuuuuuuuuuuu
Life is funny isn't it,i mean yosichu paru the amount of times we think that we've got it all figured out,we plan something big,we get excited and suddenly something happens laa,..Maybe Thats just life...in a sense life in itself is like a person right sometimes?..Like Na una neriya thetti eruken lsu mari pani eruken nu bt that doesn't mean that I hate you or like I dont trust you or whatever you may think nooo its not like that pooja,You know that right!?..You are not just special to the people you are close with,but too everyone you meet,you leave a ever lasting feeling in them,a feeling of love ,feeling of closure,Feeling of being heard,feeling of companionship at times you give people a sense of idk maybe a feeling of Home..?(for me atleast hehe{someone put the sarcastic emoji here!!(hehe)})..Huh you dont know that right dumbass!?, you will never know stupid ,you will never know how Awesome you areeee ne veraa levell theriyumaaa....Remember,whatever Happens even if we tear each others apart just be happy ,I Mean Really Happy,Dancing On Air Happyy <3 ..
Trying to find my way back home to youuuuuu
*Me if someobody HurT's yOU*
Sometimes doesn't it feel like..
We're just the same
For Now and forever
Let us make mistakes
I don't judge you, babe
This is not too late
So, let's fall from grace
Like we don't know better!<3
